today i opened up to my mate. it was surreal, because i had no idea of what i was doing. i don’t know what happened, or what came over me. but i just broke down. on the phone. im am so grateful that it wasn’t in person. but if it was, i don’t think i would have been able to control myself.
i very very rarely open up to people like that. i haven’t done so in the past 2/3 years.
to be blunt, it felt good. i have been feeling very emotional lately, i guess with everything thats been going on in the last few months it all just built up and now it just broke down.
i’m appreciative of it all but i at times, well most of the times wish people didn’t know what i was feeling or going through. she said i was scaring her when i was saying something, she was right. but that wasn’t what i told her isn’t what has the most impact on my life.
i don’t know what came over me. but it happened. it’s different opening up to a person that you know, whereas on here. it’s different. you don’t know who’s reading (if there is anyone read) and they don’t know who’s typing their mind and heart out. aha.. writing that just made it real i suppose.
technology is amazing.